She knew that this was coming and she had talked about it with him in advance. She had consulted his opinion on pursuing another career path in life, and he responded with a look that conveyed understanding of her struggle, but a stern conveyance that she needed to get out of the house again. He was the first one who heard the news about her new job, and he was the friend she went out to celebrate with in the sunshine. He understood that this was a step in the right direction for her, but he could read the hesitation on her face about how this new life would go. He could sense her anxiety building with the inertia of change and could sense that she needed to accept that her life was about to be completely different. It did not take an online horoscope for him to recognize that change was in the air, and he rad it coming months in advance. He knew that she was not handling unemployment well and that she was beginning to lose her sanity — he had witnessed it when she screamed to herself in frustration and when she cried herself to sleep with the company of her headphones. He heard the doubt in her voice when she talked herself up to socialize for the day and read the exhaustion on her face at the end of living a day she did not want to live. He saw her sing to herself and make up routines for her day that matter to no one besides them. He became her co-worker and was an expert listener to her written musings and fanciful dreams of success. He saw her working hard at something and everything all at once, building the change that was finally being initiated in her life. But it all snuck up on her because she did not have the luxury of playing the role of observer — although he could argue that that was no luxury at all. It was frustrating to watch her struggle and be down on herself for just being human. It was annoying that she allowed her emotions to overwhelm and debilitate her to the point of not being able to even go for a walk with him. And most of all, it was crushing to see her struggle and not be able to speak the words she needed to hear. He knew when she avoided him, she just could not face life and that when she finally subcame to curling up on the couch with him and a blanket that she had hit another rock bottom, and that all she needed in that moment was a friend who would understand and refrain from judgement. She had enough of that built up for herself, he knew he did not need to contribute to it. She he was there for her, and he always will be when she needed him most — or at least the lie she told herself. She could not imagine a life without his playfully caring influence, and she denied the fact that she would eventually live such a life. This was the beginning of something new for her and the end of an era that she cherished more than most things in life, because it had allowed her to get closer to him. They had lived a life of simplicity together, and although it was not something that could be sustained, it was something that she was resistent to let go of.