And that you want to lessen your dependence,
On that which places pressure on tradition,
And puts women in the kitchen.
You say that you want to break these ties,
And that you are tired of the lies,
With which you once sympathized,
Dictating how you should be alive.
You say that you want to break the trend,
And you are looking to begin again,
Chasing a different kind of end,
Where you can release this tension.
But the words that you say,
And what you are doing today,
Can only begin to explain,
Why I write this with such disdain.
Since you speak of being free,
From the same confines that restrain me,
And yet I do not believe,
That we see the same reality.
I see the responsibility of living,
And the possibility of forgiving,
Myself for insisting on reliving,
All of my misgivings.
I see that I stemmed my own progress,
And there were moments when I transgressed,
Into an even deeper loneliness,
Than you could ever guess.
Since you speak of divides,
And the struggle to truly be alive,
But you have someone by your side,
Supporting where you have currently arrived.
You say that you are doing this for you,
And that you want to stay true,
To a person that you never knew,
But what are you truly willing to do?
Since you rely on the support,
Of an understanding cohort,
Providing you with more,
Than you have ever had to work for.
Some might say that I am jealous,
And that my sense of indepence is overzealous,
But they are missing what I truly relish —
The pride of saying that I accomplished all of this.
So when you say that you can’t handle the pain,
And that you can’t live another day,
With the pressure of other’s constraints,
I will ask you to explain.
Since I have handled the same pressure,
And we could have faced this together,
But you had the support of another,
And I was left with my own lecture.
Where I say that I do not succumb,
To the pressure of anyone,
And I have learned that as a party of one,
I know what I need to get done.
I chose the life I live,
And I always saw a reason to give,
Convention a fighting chance to be corroborative,
But know that I am prone to be combative.