It gave me a second thought,
About all the trivial things over which we fought.
It made me look past the guise,
Of what I was struggling through on the inside.
It provided me with clarity,
Over the things I once lacked to see.
Since we would fight so much that I barely remember,
The moments when we were actually growing together,
In the ways that we did not want to face,
And over manners which we normally refuse to contemplate.
Our relationship forced me to be true,
To the things that I had the audacity to pursue,
Since you always questioned my choice,
Despite knowing that I believed in my own voice.
You wanted what was best for me,
And that is something at the time I refused to believe.
Since you were perceived as cruel and abusive,
And I had many reasons to refuse this,
Life that you had laid out for me in the belief,
That is was the best thing for me.
I was angry and felt misunderstood,
And claimed that you had no idea what I was going through.
I was irrational and emotional,
Yelling at you about things over which you had no control.
I was ungrateful and disappointed,
That my life and goals were so disjointed.
I decided that you would have no say in what I do,
And that you have no understanding for what I wanted to pursue.
I decided that we would never see eye to eye,
Since it was something I was not willing to try.
I wanted to fight with you,
Since it was the one thing I could do,
To express my disappointment in me,
And all the things you once believed me to be.
I proved to be a different person than you had hoped,
And I yelled words I should have never spoke.
But it brought us to a place of understanding,
Since we both have personalities that are incredibly demanding.
We stand strong in our beliefs,
And now there are no secrets that we keep.
Since we have both learned to move on,
And embrace each other before we are gone.
This life can change instantly and without permission,
Until we no longer realize what we are missing.
And I no longer want to miss you,
Or the influence you could contribute to,
My growth and understanding of this life,
And a way to survive through all of the strife.
I now crave your voice and your embrace,
Now that I have even more in life to contemplate.
I now respect all that you had to do,
In order to provide me with the life you wanted too.
I now miss you influence,
In my pursuit of thoughtlessness.
But yesterday I was reminded,
Of all that ways in which I was blinded,
When I was growing up with you,
And fighting everything you wanted me to do.
When I did not attempt to see,
Everything in which you believed me to be.
When I took you for granted,
And I wanted more than what I was handed.
When I thought you were the last person on earth,
Who I wanted to give me birth.
But now I see my luck for what it is,
An attempt at generational bliss,
Where you worked hard to correct the mistakes of your mother,
And provide me with another,
Kind of life in which you would find no disappointment,
And the kind of woman in who you would find enjoyment.
So thank you for all that you did,
And thank you for all that you do,
Because I know that if there is one thing that is true,
It is that there is so much love shared between me and you.